Oh my, I've been away much too long. In all honesty I've just been trying to survive day to day through a lot of crappy, stressful garbage and my energy and creativeness have been sucked out of me. I've been trying to find my way out of all this nonsense and finally have come to the point where I think I've figured something out. No matter what others are doing around me, even those that claim to love me, only I can pull myself up out of the muck, and the only way I know how to do that is to use the one tool I have ... my art.
So, I have to spend a part of each day digging deep and coaxing my Muse to come out of hiding and help me out. (Are you listening lil ole Muse of mine?) Even if I only have the energy for 30 minutes it's at least 30 minutes I spent trying to make my life better. I started yesterday by mixing up a new batch of clay and then covered 10 plain, glass ornaments with their first layer of clay. They are now hanging and drying. I also sculpted a bit on a new "Jack B. Rotten" ornament and the vision I have for it made me laugh (something I don't do much these days). Those 30 minutes stretched out to a few hours and during that time I felt ........ whole.
So lil Muse of mine, I will be knocking on your door each day and you must come out, if only for 30 minutes at a time.